Life (written behind bars in 2005)

I live a life of trial and tribulation,

I chose this path of pain and revelation.

I always thought I'd live my life with no regret,

but now I've come to find that with temptation comes lament.

My present life is filled with worry and bad news,

filled with foolish pride, tattooed tears,

and grown men with corrupt views.

Cold & Corrupt

Predictions of the past have now come to pass.

Taken for granted and thrown just like trash.

Promises, hearts, loves have indeed,

been destroyed and abandoned through emotional greed.

I wish I could say I remember good times

before all the hatred, betrayal and lies.

Constantly yearning to be loved and accepted,

yet always being hurt, deprived or neglected.

People always want to be loved and be trusted,

but never take notice of how they neglect it.

I feel like dying, sometimes I might say.

Life's pleasures and treasures I feel melting away.

Missing good times, I never could have,

My feelings of sadness are masked by my laugh.

The love I possess is real but untouched,

because of a world that's cold and corrupt.

A Word 4 The Righteous

The 2-faced exist in every crowd,

Hating on someone when they're not around.

Disguised as a friend, seldom with fail,

Leaving jealousy, lies, games and betrayal.

Difficult at times to discern from the rest, 

even the sharpest can be fooled and decieved,

exploiting resentments, your views or your greed.

The wise will take note, and stay on your toes.

Cause weather it shines, it rains, or it snows,

there is a treacherous "friend" that everyone knows. 

Keep it Real

Constantly planning, and figuring out what to do.

Striving to change and make it through.

It's hard to be humble and keep a cool head,

when fools want to test and then wind up dead.

People don't listen and learn from mistakes,

they believe in bravado,

they lie and they fake.

One thing i'm sure of and will always be true:

The last laugh belongs to the one who's ahead,

and the fake always lose to the real in the end.

Tell me what you C in me

Some say that the eyes are the windows to the soul.

If you look hard enough, 

you may see love, hate, deceit, greed...

Some keep it real and others are harder 2 read.

Through these eyes I've seen it all.

My pride alone has kept me standing tall.

I've tried time and time again to live my life with no remorse,

but through life's lessons and mistakes

my heart has always kept it's course.

In my eyes you will find pain and sorrow,

this is true

but you will also find love and wisdom.

A loyal friend or foe,

either or is up to you.

I know my soul is old, and tired from the way I've lived my life.

I know I should have been dead

 many more times than twice.

Look into my eyes and tell me what you see..

Is it pain, love, grief or misery?

You be the judge and tell me what you see in me.

From this thug straight to you

I share this with you.

My life, my love, my misery.

My words are always true.

I paint murals with my words

like mist on morning dew.

For the reader I must display:

My pain; my thoughts; the battles I have fought.

I've kept it real in every way.

These words are from my heart,

I swear this to be true.

Every single rhyme,

from this thug straight to you.

A Life of Pure Insanity (written behind bars in 2005)

In this land of hatred, death and spiritual damnation,

I need a place to stand.

I need a place to rest my head

 when all is lost and all is said.

Dope fiends and broken dreams are everywhere

its all I see.

So what else would you expect me to be?

A drug dealer is what I was, I'm hoping that I'll rise above.

I've lived a life of false belief 

that's left me with nothing but death and grief.

Now I'm caged like an outcast

trapped inside these four brick walls.

Stripped of money and self respect,

So what else would you expect but for me to be a thug who shows no love,

its all I've known to see:

A life of pure insanity.

My Light In The Darkness

A real love is an elusive thing in life.

Some never experience, but those who have

know that it can lift the soul or cut it like a knife.

I have been fortunate, in my young life,

to experience love more than twice.

Through all of my misery and losses I've dealt with,

I found a light in all of the darkness.

Someone must be watching in the heavens above,

for these treasured emotions to be planted

in the heart of a thug.

I can only hope, that if I hold dear, this light that I've found,

that wherever I may go it will always be around.

2 My Baby Miriam

Thinking of you on this gloomy afternoon

hoping and praying that you'll return to me soon.

My heart aches;my heart breaks,

every time you leave my sight.

I know that you're okay,

but the lord knows down inside I,

I just don't feel right,

without you by my side.

You're a part of me now

and I need you next to me.

You're mine and I'm your's 

like fate belongs to destiny.