Suicidal Thoughts

I sit and think of how things are,

I think of how they've been.

I can't help but to realize that,

at life no one can win.

I try to cope and carry on with the misery within.

Thinking things will change someday

and yet they stay the same.

I say some prayers and write these rhymes,

to try and ease the pain.

Living life while wanting death and hoping for gunshots.

Sometimes I sit and think of life and suicidal thoughts.

Yes it's true I get these thoughts,

some homicidal too,

I feel this way and get these thoughts from pain that's caused by you...

Cold Outside

The world is cold, no compassion.

What is left for me to hold on to?

Living life day by day, 

but why should I go on?

To want someone to need me,

is that so wrong?

I'm still a young man,

but the years have been so long.

My soul is exhausted,

my strength is almost gone.

I've sinned and been repaid

with misery and pain.

I have a rage inside that I can barely contain.

God send me a solution,

so that I can still maintain.